I love to write poetry, several years ago I wrote two poems... One titled "lost within" and the other titled "If I only knew"... who'd of thought that so many years later I would come full cirlce and find myself writing the same poems over again.
I started two different poems over the last couple of days and life hasn't allowed me the creativity to finish them. Stress seems to stiffle creativity, for me at least. If I get the poems finished I will post them.
On that note though, seeing as how I haven't posted in a while I thought I would write a note about what the poems center around. The truth is I'm not happy, I don't mean that in an "I'm Depressed" kind of fashion... I mean like most people i have happy days and I have sad days. For the most part I am a feeler, my life revolves around dreams, and feelings... its about a deeper desire, emotions that I attatch to everyday things. I know people that want to experience life, I know people that want to live their life, I know people that want to ignore their life...
I WANT TO FEEL MY LIFE!
both poems have the same general idea... what do you see when you look at me? Do you see my effort, my successes and failures. Do you see the stress and the fear. DO you see my doubts in my self as a father and a husband? Do you see a realist, a dreamer, a cynic. Do you see my struggles to pay my bills.
Do you see the artist, the lover, the poet. The dreams that lie deep inside me. DO you see the joy that I get from seeing my father play with my kids. Do youe see my passion for Christ and for God. Does anyone really see me, the me that was there before the stress, before the failures, before the loss?
It is by the same process that we can polish a stone to a perfect finish that we can wear it away down to nothing.
I miss "ME".
Missing:
6'0, Brown Hair, Brown Eyes, full of love and compassion, last seen dreaming. May be in the possesion of poetry, music, art supplies, and a bible. Last seen wearing jeans, looney toons t-shirt and cowboy boots.
If you have seen this person please let me know.
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I hope that when you write, that it helps you to find yourself....I'm pretty sure that you are a great husband, dad, and teacher or you wouldn't be so concerned about them in the first place. If you didn't care so much...you wouldn't be searching. Just a thought. Hope that you have a great weekend and the birthday party goes great!
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